Friday's Child

(In memory of Dietrich Bonhoeffer,

martyred at Flossenbürg, April 9, 1945)

     He told us we were free to choose
     But, children as we were, we thought-
     "Paternal Love will only use
     Force in the last resort
     On those too bumptious to repent."
     Accustomed to religious dread,
     It never crossed our minds He meant
     Exactly what He said.
     Perhaps He frowns, perhaps He grieves,
     But it seems idle to discuss
     If anger or compassion leaves
     The bigger bangs to us.
     What reverence is rightly paid
     To a Divinity so odd
     He lets the Adam whom He made
     Perform the Acts of God?
     It might be jolly if we felt
     Awe at this Universal Man
     (When kings were local, people knelt);
     Some try to, but who can?
     The self-observed observing Mind
     We meet when we observe at all
     Is not alariming or unkind
     But utterly banal.
     Though instruments at Its command
     Make wish and counterwish come true,
     It clearly cannot understand
     What It can clearly do.
     Since the analogies are rot
     Our senses based belief upon,
     We have no means of learning what
     Is really going on,
     And must put up with having learned
     All proofs or disproofs that we tender
     Of His existence are returned
     Unopened to the sender.
     Now, did He really break the seal
     And rise again? We dare not say;
     But conscious unbelievers feel
     Quite sure of Judgement Day.
     Meanwhile, a silence on the cross,
     As dead as we shall ever be,
     Speaks of some total gain or loss,
     And you and I are free
     To guess from the insulted face
     Just what Appearances He saves
     By suffering in a public place
     A death reserved for slaves.

1958